The other day was a bit of a test posting -I wrote a post about Facebook and how I was using it – uploaded it from Pages in my iPad to Dropbox and then thought I’d test out the iPad WordPress app. All’s well and good – everything works as advertised.
But then I hit the upload/publish button thinking it would go to “draft” status. Ah no. As it turns out, “publish” means exactly that – “publish” as is “go live now”. What I should have done was reset the tiny wheel in the bottom left corner to “draft” (who knew it was in there?) and then hit the publish button. So my first draft went live. Now this wouldn’t have been a bad thing- often my first drafts are my most-honest – but there were things in there that I wasn’t happy with and wanted to think about before setting loose onto the Net.
Kind of like practice for real life when you think about it. Only in the real world, you seldom get a chance to unpublish what you say to others or to really get a chance to rework what you’re doing.
Oh, we all make those speeches in our heads before we get into situations and then we all rewrite them furiously while we’re speaking and then we all go home to rewrite, once again, what we should have said when he said that and what we should have and really, really wanted to say when she said that! Well, maybe you don’t do that but I sure do.
That’s why I like being a writer more than I like being out and about. I get to edit what I say, I get to rewrite and if I screw up, I get to unpublish.
But I only get to unpublish if I get to it fast enough before you have read it. Otherwise, it goes out to the world and I’m stuck with those words. Forever.
The other thing about writing is that I get better at it the more I do. I never seem to get better at talking to people – I still review conversations and want to resay them, even after more than 60 years of practising talking to other people.
There’s no big message here other than I suspect we all share the inner voice, the ability to screw up, to regret it and the desire to rewrite/resay.
That’s probably one reason I prefer writing.